My first post

I loved to write last time...i loved to be romantic last time...but now the flair was gone just like that...i tend to keep it inside...i preferred not to show to my friends, my family and even to my love one. I hate to look weak...i hate to cry because of love..i suffered a lots more than a decade in the name of love. Maybe this is the result after all i went through to be 'Mr Always Right'. I just confused how to start it again...i feel like d'e'ja vu everytime my love acts strange. Im afraid it will happen again.