New Chapter

Its been 2 weeks im away from my comfort zone, my family, my friends, my old life!! It was weird at the beginning, new place, new faces and totally a new strange language. Acclimatization process is kicking in and now i feel like im home again!!

Im trying hard to forget my previous chapter, but they keep on haunting me...i felt helpless and hopeless, i was lost!! And now im looking at the brighter tunnel that will leads a better chapter in my life. Hopefully!!

Christmas was over and now, new year of 2011 is coming up. But the biggest decision of my life is still pending...im just afraid that i will hurt again..

Option

“Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach.”

Huruf L

Ratu-ratu cantik Miss USA, Miss Singapore dan Miss Malaysia adalah antara yang layak ke pusingan separuh akhir. Untuk naik ke pusingan terahir, mereka akan dihakimi dari jawapan kepada tiga soalan mudah yang sama.



Mereka disoal tiga ratu sekali gus. MC mulakan soalan untuk Miss USA, Miss Singapore dan Miss Malaysia.



MC: The first question is, name me an electrical appliance starting with "L"

Miss USA: Lamp

Miss Singapore: Light bulb

Miss Malaysia: LADIO



Ketua Hakim: No, no, Radio does not start with the letter "L"



MC: I am going to give you two more questions. Now, name me an animal starting with the letter "L".



Miss USA: Lion

Miss Singapore: Leopard

Miss Malaysia: LABBIT



Ketua Hakim: No, no, no it is rabbit. Not LABBIT!



MC: Next question. The name of a famous car that starts with "L"

Miss USA: Lexus

Miss Singapore: Lamborghini

Miss Malaysia: Lolls-Loyce



Ketua Hakim: Oh my God! Rolls Royce, for heaven sake.



MC: I am going to give another question as a last chance! Name me a fruit starting with the letter "L"

Miss USA: Lemon

Miss Singapore: Lychee

Miss Malaysia: (Dengan penuh yakin, sambil tersenyum dia menjawab) LIEWLIAN!!



Rupanya cerita ini belum berakhir lagi.



Para hakim terpaksa bermesyuarat sebentar untuk menentukan samada Miss Malaysia patut di disqualified. Akhirnya mereka bersetuju Miss Malaysia berhadapan dengan masaalah penyebutan huruf L. Dia patut diberikan peluang sekali lagi.



Hakim: (sendiri bertanya) OK, the final question is name me a part of the human anatomy starting with the letter "L"

Miss USA: Lung (tepuk tangan)

Miss Singapore: Liver (lebih kuat tepuk tangan)

Miss Malaysia: LAN CIAU



Kesemua juri hakim-hakim pengsan ...

"Aku Sebatang Pen"

I was laughing alone this morning when looking at the blue pen on my desk when i reached my office after a long holiday. It reminds me when i was in primary school. "Aku sebatang pen" was the common essay that we must write during that time.

The story is all about a life of the blue pen. Started with; when it was born, where, how, and why. After that, the blue pen found a new lady owner and they were very happy together. The owner thought that she had the best ever pen in the world! But then, she was wrong; the blue pen sometimes didn't work accordingly as what she wanted to be.

The owner wished that the blue pen can write in red and black too. But, no matter how, the blue pen was trying so hard to do something that outside its own capability but still the owner didn't satisfied with her pen.

After all, the owner decided to get the new blue pen. Sadly, she just threw her old blue pen out of nowhere. Ironically, she found out that her new blue pen also sometimes can't work very well and she started to think and looking for her old blue pen.

Suddenly, she realized that she only needs to refill the ink in order to keep the blue pen working!!!

The old pen was so sad but still happy for its owner's decision. But still wishing that, one day she will take the old blue pen back and refill it with the new ink!!!

Till now, the old blue pen is still waiting......

What if

What if,the Sun rise in the west and set in the east?

What if, the Stars stop twinkle at night??

What if, the Moon is not as beauty as we know??

What if, that Love never fade in this stubborn heart???

What if???!!!

Life

Life is like music, it must be composed by ear, feeling and instinct, not by rule. Nevertheless one had better know the rules, for they sometimes guide in doubtful cases, though not often.

-Samuel Butler-

The Reminisce

In life the more you understand about everything that is going on, the more that you are hopelessly confused.And I have to agree reluctantly about the confused part!!! Because I AM confused now..

Confused bout myself, confused to make the right decision.

My past experience molded me to become so heartless... HEARTLESS = HEART BREAKER???

I've been laughing alone this evening while driving home from my work when listening to Taio Cruz's song. Slowly i realized that I'm no longer the same person like last time. Im just too afraid to be like others; COMMIT!!! Yeah, i feel envious with my peer when they can commit and get married. And MARRIAGE????? is too way and way beyond in my mind. Never ever cross in my mind since those days..

Strangely, i never blame anyone with my current condition in fact i blame myself badly..all the time!! Coz i know i deserve all of it. And plus rule of the fingers is so simple "Pointing yourself first, before you start pointing people". Coz I know I got a problem..problem with misbehaving..

Even so, im still just a human, and a normal human can bleeds and can be wounded. Everybody does...and even heartless person like me don't have any exception..i wish i can have that exception!!! hehehehehe

Part of The List

You are the part of the list...

and you are still...

Four Hearts for One Love???

Now, im stuck..
Im not sure what to do especially dealing with love again..

I even do not know myself anymore... I rather to be like last time, be sarcastic me!!

I feel great when i know that four hearts are belong to me but at the same time i feel empty..i feel AIMLESS toward LOVE!!! Yeah thats what my old timer friend told me and describe about girls; they are aimless and i dont want to become like them..but im not talking about them right now im talking about this cold feeling, disappointment, revenge and loveless.

Now i realized that my psychopathy characteristic is building up inside my mind and im afraid it will be permanently in my heart. Heartless is the supreme consequences that i can see from now.

And i thank to this one person who started this game...Thank you.

Love..

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings..

Wild World

Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it's breaking my heart you're leaving
Baby I'm grieving..

And if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
A lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile

I'll always remember you like a child girl
You know I've seen a lot of
What the world can do
And it's breaking my heart in two
Coz I never want to see you sad girl
Don't be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there's
A lot of bad and beware
Coz i loved you..

King or Slave??

Its a new year now, welcome 2010!! But, phew!! No more December, No more School Holiday and the most important thing, no more Wedding Invitation!! Totally a relief for me now.

Been chatting with a friend while attending my best friend's wedding last week and the topic was "King for one day and slave for whole life" it made me feel really creepy when thinking bout the slave part!! hahahhahaha

Yes and No might be the answer but im not a right person to answer that, because im not the KING yet. Maybe ill be a King for the whole of my life but the question is, if im a King?? Does that mean my queen will be a slave for whole of her life??? Im sure the collateral damage will occurred but who is the victim will be???