In life the more you understand about everything that is going on, the more that you are hopelessly confused.And I have to agree reluctantly about the confused part!!! Because I AM confused now..
Confused bout myself, confused to make the right decision.
My past experience molded me to become so heartless... HEARTLESS = HEART BREAKER???
I've been laughing alone this evening while driving home from my work when listening to Taio Cruz's song. Slowly i realized that I'm no longer the same person like last time. Im just too afraid to be like others; COMMIT!!! Yeah, i feel envious with my peer when they can commit and get married. And MARRIAGE????? is too way and way beyond in my mind. Never ever cross in my mind since those days..
Strangely, i never blame anyone with my current condition in fact i blame myself badly..all the time!! Coz i know i deserve all of it. And plus rule of the fingers is so simple "Pointing yourself first, before you start pointing people". Coz I know I got a problem..problem with misbehaving..
Even so, im still just a human, and a normal human can bleeds and can be wounded. Everybody does...and even heartless person like me don't have any exception..i wish i can have that exception!!! hehehehehe
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Monday, June 14, 2010
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Four Hearts for One Love???
Now, im stuck..
Im not sure what to do especially dealing with love again..
I even do not know myself anymore... I rather to be like last time, be sarcastic me!!
I feel great when i know that four hearts are belong to me but at the same time i feel empty..i feel AIMLESS toward LOVE!!! Yeah thats what my old timer friend told me and describe about girls; they are aimless and i dont want to become like them..but im not talking about them right now im talking about this cold feeling, disappointment, revenge and loveless.
Now i realized that my psychopathy characteristic is building up inside my mind and im afraid it will be permanently in my heart. Heartless is the supreme consequences that i can see from now.
And i thank to this one person who started this game...Thank you.
Im not sure what to do especially dealing with love again..
I even do not know myself anymore... I rather to be like last time, be sarcastic me!!
I feel great when i know that four hearts are belong to me but at the same time i feel empty..i feel AIMLESS toward LOVE!!! Yeah thats what my old timer friend told me and describe about girls; they are aimless and i dont want to become like them..but im not talking about them right now im talking about this cold feeling, disappointment, revenge and loveless.
Now i realized that my psychopathy characteristic is building up inside my mind and im afraid it will be permanently in my heart. Heartless is the supreme consequences that i can see from now.
And i thank to this one person who started this game...Thank you.
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